diis boy...smfh...ii have really been thru a lot wiith diis dude and thru it all deres noone iid rather be wiith..he makes me smile..he makes me cry...he makes me happy...he makes me sad...ii juss hate da fact dat thiings took the ugly turn dat dey diid...cuz we cud be soo happy wiith each other...but ii guess tiime will fix dat...he means da world to me...ii just dnt thiink ii feel the same about him aneemore...iim fallin out wiith hiim..ii do still love him but my feelings are drifting now...and ii hate dat..ii dont wanna lose hiim no more thrn ii alreadii have...he doesnt kno thiis but he iis the reason ii was rethiinkiing goiin away to college..but iim deffinately goiing now...cuz wat am ii stayiing for...to keep hurtiing...tiired of thiis...but ii continue to care...iits retarded...but thats wat it iz...lol...ii miiss hiim soo much ii havent seen him iin 2 weeks...and dat suckz...but w.e ii cnt waiit till college...iits gonna be fun...but yea...diis boy iis da only boy imma love for the rest of my liife...dats neva gonna change although he is an asshole sumtiimes..hes my everythiing and ii wudnt want to be sad or happy wiith aneeone else...ii love you jo0nbug...lol

s3p3ratiion

hey seperaiion iiz sucky....me and my giirliies have hiit rock bottom.....we all are changiin and liife means soo much more to us ofcourse ii miiss dem alreadii...but these are the thiings dat happen wen you grow up....wow tears was flowin today boii et me tell you...giina graduated...ii wudve too except for  dem damned regents...ugh!!!but yea shima does coop dis organizatiion dat gets you out the schoolfor half da day....iim basically liiviing a my gmas now so thiingz are bound to change...ii feel so overwhelmed wiih sadness...ii alreadii feel liike iim losiing my bestfriend...but thats anotha blog....diis one bout my giirliies....lolz...jk....giina...wow liike ii neva new iin a tousand years we wud be soo close liike diis chiic iis my bestest friiend and iits crazy cuz ii neva liiked her...but some people are put togetha for reasonz...she has been there even wen ii diidnt want her to be....she has seen the worse siide of me and was able to briing out the best....she showed me so much....and ii love her odee we dont always see eye to eye but dats me bestfriend/siis and we always down to riide for each otha.....den derez miima miima bka brooklynn aka shiima aka booga mannnnn diis giirl she iis everythiing to me, me and shiima been thru soo much and we know soo much about each otha its siickeniing...lolz...me and shiima iis liike starsky and hutch dat giirl been ridiin wiith me for a minute and she neva changed towards me not once...she is genuine and ii am really blessed to have her as a bestfriiend/brotha/sis/crazy lil monkey....dat ii love soo much....last but certainly not lease derez keek da sneak da freak of ya man week....menggggg diis giirl she iis my riib....she feel wat ii feel at tiimes and iits so crazy....we benn thru so mch as well....we have so many secrets dat only we know...and our friiendship iis so colorful and crazy she makes me smile wen all ii wanna do iis cry and she juss knows wat goin on wiithout me tellin her....she always been down wiith me siince she was like 5, 6 and ii oso love her...ii love all my chiicaz and imma miiss em cuz we deff growiin apart....but ii love em so much and dat wnt change...muuahhz...hunniiez

VOiid

Feeliin liike ii juss walked riight out of a dream...ii don't know how to feel....one minute iim done da nexx iim iin iit.....juss confusiing...ii wanna fill diss voiid iin my liife && ii know dat ii can onlee fill dat wiith hiim....ii love dat boy soo much dat its hard to let go....he iis my everything....&& my love for him will never go away....iim juss takiin thiings slow....but iim tiired so here ii go.....off to bed....muahz <33

VOiid

hiiii homiie

Hey there its been a while siince ii blogged sorry......been thiinkiin && stuff.....ii really miss my bestiiez.....iim goin home today....yayyy ii reallly miss everyone.....well sad to say my aunty bunny iis siick && ii feel really bad ii wiish she gets betta....smh.....juss a thought....not much to blog abt today....so yea

hiiii homiie

Hey there its been a while siince ii blogged sorry......been thiinkiin && stuff.....ii really miss my bestiiez.....iim goin home today....yayyy ii reallly miss everyone.....well sad to say my aunty bunny iis siick && ii feel really bad ii wiish she gets betta....smh.....juss a thought....not much to blog abt today....so yea

sko0l..ugh

h3y sko0l was okay today...had a little fun atleast for the few minutez dhat ii was iin attendanc3 ii so didnt wanna stay....ugh!!! not really a gr3at day...had a little confrontation with th3 b3stii3 today we had a f3w ch0iic3 of wordz....but yet another....wtf mom3nt....ii cant stand th3 fact that ii 3v3n onc3 had a crush on dhiis nigga that ii thought was r3d hot....h3z a fuckin goof off and he takes nothing seriously. i gu3ss ill try 2 hav3 a good day tomorrow cuz todaii aint go as plann3d or as ii thought shyt wouldv3 w3nt down...btu w.3...im missiin my 3x liik3 mad...and iits r3ally ann0yiing...cuz h3 cam3 by th3 otha day....and layin d3r3 wiith hym brought bacc mad od33 m3morii3z...but ill survive...ii gu3ss. w3ll kiss3s to my biitch3z...hugz to my thugz...im of dhis shyt...my jamila boo iiz hom3 today....d3ff gotta chill..muahhz b3stii3z.. l83r