diis boy...smfh...ii have really been thru a lot wiith diis dude and thru it all deres noone iid rather be wiith..he makes me smile..he makes me cry...he makes me happy...he makes me sad...ii juss hate da fact dat thiings took the ugly turn dat dey diid...cuz we cud be soo happy wiith each other...but ii guess tiime will fix dat...he means da world to me...ii just dnt thiink ii feel the same about him aneemore...iim fallin out wiith hiim..ii do still love him but my feelings are drifting now...and ii hate dat..ii dont wanna lose hiim no more thrn ii alreadii have...he doesnt kno thiis but he iis the reason ii was rethiinkiing goiin away to college..but iim deffinately goiing now...cuz wat am ii stayiing for...to keep hurtiing...tiired of thiis...but ii continue to care...iits retarded...but thats wat it iz...lol...ii miiss hiim soo much ii havent seen him iin 2 weeks...and dat suckz...but w.e ii cnt waiit till college...iits gonna be fun...but yea...diis boy iis da only boy imma love for the rest of my liife...dats neva gonna change although he is an asshole sumtiimes..hes my everythiing and ii wudnt want to be sad or happy wiith aneeone else...ii love you jo0nbug...lol